You know that jittery shaky feeling you get when you have had far too much caffeine? You're like uber-hyper and see things way too clearly. Your thoughts are racing faster than the speed of light, and the one repeating thought is when am I going to get dizzy and fall down? I'm having that feeling today, but in a great way. This week is full of mind-blowing experiences for me and all I know if I want to savor each moment. I don't want to zoom by them, but this exited jittery shaky feeling I'm having is making me wonder if I'll be able to.
The most important thing to know right now is I'm happy. Something clicked last week in me in which I sang "HELLO WORLD! HERE I AM!" I'd also like to thank a co-worker of mine for putting that particular tune in my head as I wrote this.
But I digress: the point is I'm singing in my thoughts. That is a great thing as I am a singer. And this week, there is no better time to be singing my thoughts. With 2 full days of recording this week, my second television interview/ performance, my first ever music industry mixer and a day to write, I better be singing....with all I got! And I'm gonna. All that jittery shaky excitement will be transferred into my performing, recording and writing this week. And you know what?! I'm so excited about it!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Euphoria...
"Had to have faith.
Had to be strong.
Had to believe in myself,
had to believe in my song!"
-Collin Marrero
Sometimes you just have to believe. Even when you feel, hear or see nothing, you just have to believe. You can't touch hope. You can't hear determiniation. You can't see faith. But it's there.
Last night I was painting. I had my iPod jamming in my ears. I was seriously letting go. I mean I just gave myself to the music and the flow of the paint brush. It was almost euphoric. I was dancing to myself and smiling just as much. It was a great feeling. I let everything that could have possibly gone wrong that day or even this past week, any worries, doubts or fears I may have been having, just drip off me like I was pouring the paint.
Four hours later, I decide to check my email. I normally check it every five minutes, but I decided to just let it go in my euphoric state. LOL And guess what?! If you send out positive energy into the universe, the universe will send it right back to you. Three fold.
In my email I had 3 requests, not one, not two BUT THREE requests to perform! As a singer, thats a big deal, especially as I am trying to get my music career on the right track. I think I may have let out a little scream when I saw these emails, but I can not guarantee such events as there were no witnesses. So I will deny it in person. HAHA.
Anyway, what is the point of my rambling? It's simple. Like attracts like. If you wants good things to happen in life, you must send out the right vibe. The right energy. Take the time to smile. To dance by yourself. Paint yourself euphoric. Life may not always be easy. Life may not always be all that you want it to be. But if you send out the euphoria, you'll get it in return.
Had to be strong.
Had to believe in myself,
had to believe in my song!"
-Collin Marrero
Sometimes you just have to believe. Even when you feel, hear or see nothing, you just have to believe. You can't touch hope. You can't hear determiniation. You can't see faith. But it's there.
Last night I was painting. I had my iPod jamming in my ears. I was seriously letting go. I mean I just gave myself to the music and the flow of the paint brush. It was almost euphoric. I was dancing to myself and smiling just as much. It was a great feeling. I let everything that could have possibly gone wrong that day or even this past week, any worries, doubts or fears I may have been having, just drip off me like I was pouring the paint.
Four hours later, I decide to check my email. I normally check it every five minutes, but I decided to just let it go in my euphoric state. LOL And guess what?! If you send out positive energy into the universe, the universe will send it right back to you. Three fold.
In my email I had 3 requests, not one, not two BUT THREE requests to perform! As a singer, thats a big deal, especially as I am trying to get my music career on the right track. I think I may have let out a little scream when I saw these emails, but I can not guarantee such events as there were no witnesses. So I will deny it in person. HAHA.
Anyway, what is the point of my rambling? It's simple. Like attracts like. If you wants good things to happen in life, you must send out the right vibe. The right energy. Take the time to smile. To dance by yourself. Paint yourself euphoric. Life may not always be easy. Life may not always be all that you want it to be. But if you send out the euphoria, you'll get it in return.
Monday, September 13, 2010
I Will Rise Above...
"Lying on the couch,
trying to figure out
what is the meaning of life.
Then I jump into the air
and hope to linger there,
at least enough to land on my feet.
As I look into the sky,
I often wonder why
I wasn't born with wings."
-Collin Marrero
What is a phoenix? A mythological bird to which dies by self-combusting into burning flames but then is reborn and rises from its own ashes. I have a beautiful tattoo of one on my arm. It's a very symbolic bird, dont' you think?? I am a phoenix. Well I'm not a bird, but symbolically I am a phoenix. Sometimes fires are started around me. Sometimes I start my own. I wish all of the fires I have ever dealt with were contained in the cozy shell of a fireplace. BUT 99% of the time, they are wildfires. Out of control and always leading to something being burnt down. Mostly me. Hence why I am a phoenix. It is hard work, but with determination I rise above. I am reborn. I never let the ashes hold me down. I learn from the scars that the fire leaves, and become stronger. Just like a phoenix I will rise above.
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